Chapter 1.6 – Hope and Courage

It was over two weeks now, and I didn’t hear a word from Marcus. I tried going to the gym in hope of crossing him, but because of the pregnancy and back aches I wasn’t able to go to the gym anymore. I tried calling him but he never picked up.

Patty was thrilled about my pregnancy. She couldn’t wait to have a little baby brother or sister. Of course, she knew about my worries and understood that this was the second time that things were happening this way. “Ma don’t worry about it! This is great news, and who cares if you’re a single mom? Look at me now! We’re happy together and now we’ll have a baby to add-on to our joy.”
“You know Patricia, I wish I had your perspective on things. I just don’t think I’m made to have kids. Every time I get pregnant I’m left alone.”
“You’re not alone Ma, we’re in this together. I’m really excited about this baby and I think you should be too. Maybe Marcus will come back once the news has sunk into his mind.”
“I don’t think it’s going to work that way Patty.”

“And why not. How can you be so sure Ma!”
Instantly, I thought about Jeff. How he left me and never came back or called. I tilted my head downwards and shook my head. I didn’t want to mention Jeffrey to Patty.
“Ma, I know my dad hasn’t been around all these years but I still think he’ll show up some time! I just feel it. And maybe it’s going to be the same with Marcus. It’s only been two weeks.”
Once again, I said nothing. I shook my head, unable to be positive about the situation.
“Mom, Jeffrey will come back. I just know it!”
I smiled at Patricia, admired by her optimism. She had hope and courage, something I didn’t have.

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I picked up my cellphone, and for the fiftieth time, I called Marcus. As usual, he didn’t pick up. I stood there, hands on my hips wondering what to do. That’s when I got the idea to call Carl. It would do me some good to go out and have a good time. I called him, and he said he was free for the night so we both agreed on meeting by Pine Lake.

I was so happy to see Carl that I hugged him tightly. He laughed understanding the joy I had when I saw him. “Hey Faith!”
“Hey,” I said with a large smile.

Immediately, Carl noticed my large baby bump. “Woah, growing by the minute huh!” He bent over to listen to my belly. “Do you think it’s going to be a boy or a girl?”
It took me a second to answer him. I’ve been so preoccupied with all the drama going on with Marcus, that I had never paid much attention on the gender of this baby. “Um, I don’t know, I rather not get any expectations you know?”
Carl nodded.

Carl always managed to know the way I was feeling. He took my hands and looked me in the eyes. “You know Faith, I know about all your worries, and I know what you’re going through is tough and I can’t imagine how you feel but I do know that you can make it through. You’ve done it once you can do it again no?” He paused and gave me a small, comforting smirk. Then he added, “Besides, Marcus is the one that will be missing out. It’s his loss, really.”

In that moment, I realized how Carl was always there for me. I developed a new attraction towards him. As he held my hands, I just wanted to lean in and kiss him. For his arms to be around me and comfort me with his soothing words. I tried telling myself that was crazy, but I really, really wanted to kiss him. Clearly he felt the same way towards me. The way he always hugged me and supported me. He laughed at all my jokes and he loved hearing my dramatic girl stories. I was about to lean closer towards him, but the subject changed, and he let go of my hands. I sighed to myself, promising myself that the next opportunity that was presented my way, I was going to take it.

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It was the middle of the night when I woke up abruptly. I felt a heavy cramp on my left abdomen. My back was hurting and my stomach was filling with painful cramps. I knew what this feeling was, but I never thought it would have come this early. I yelled for Patricia, hoping that she would hear me even in her sleep. To my surprise she was in my room a lot faster than I had expected. “Ma? Oh my gosh ma! Are you having the baby? Oh geez, you’re having the baby. The baby is coming! W..Well do you want to go to the hospital? Do I call a cab? Oh my gosh I don’t know what to do.”
“We don’t have time for a cab! You have to drive me to the hospital!”
“Me? I can’t drive! We’ve only practice a few times, Ma-”
“Come on the baby is coming!”

Both of us ran through the door, and I stepped into the passenger seat, as Patty drove towards the hospital.

I was in labor for the whole night. I was given many pills to take away the unbearable pain but even then it wasn’t the smoothest pregnancy. After seven hours of lying in a hospital bed uncomfortably, I finally gave birth to a healthy baby boy.

Patricia was thrilled about her new baby brother. I decided to give the honors to Patty to pick the name for the new member of the family. Without a second’s hesitation, she blurted out Joshua, and so that’s when we welcomed Joshua Auburn to our family. He was born artistic and virtuoso. I looked straight at my baby boy and I was proud to see that he looked exactly like me. He had long black hair and his eyes were just a darker shade of blue compared to mine. I never felt more happy in my whole life, and I realized how both Carl and Patricia were right; Having a baby brought joy to people’s lives.

I had a few weeks off work so that gave me the chance to spend as much time as possible with Josh. I’d teach him to walk and talk, and sometimes we’d just mess around laughing. Though, I have to admit that he was a very quiet child. He didn’t seem to be the type to complain when things weren’t his way. Or maybe I was just exaggerating because I was so used to Patty screaming and crying when she was just a baby.

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Spending most of my time at home with Joshua didn’t give me much time to spend with Carl. Though, one late night Patricia agreed to babysitting and Carl and I met up on the beach near the water’s edge. We started by talking about Joshua and how still Marcus hadn’t come back but that even without his presence I was filled with joy. It was getting darker, and we could see the reflection of the moon on the dark water’s surface. It came time to say good-bye and when Carl leaned in for our usual friendly hug, I gave him a small peck on the lips.

When I opened my eyes, I was surprised to see Carl, taking a step back with a face that told me he wasn’t pleased. “Faith, what was that all about?”
“I…What..what do you mean?”
“How could you kiss me like that!”

He shook his arms in the air, a disgusted expression spread across his face. My words stumbled, and I couldn’t think straight. “Wha…I don’t understand?”

Carl was shaking his head, looking down at the sandy floor. “Geez Faith, I can’t believe you just did that.”
“I don’t understand Carl.” I thought to myself, was I that bad to kiss?
“Faith, after all these years I just can’t believe you would attempt such a trick on me!”

He wasn’t yelling, but his voice was full of disappointment. “Carl, please explain this to me. I don’t understand what I did that was so wrong. I…I’m sorry if you don’t feel that way towards me. I just thought..” I was cut off.
“What did you think Faith?” We both stared at each other in a moment of silence, and finally Carl spoke. “Faith I don’t understand why you would even think of kissing me. We both know I’m homosexual! How could you even think of me this way.”

My mind went blank. Homosexual? I had no idea Carl was into men. But how couldn’t I have seen it? “Carl, I’m so sorry, I had no idea…”
“You what?! How could you not know! After all the years we’ve known each other. After all the times we’ve been together and the memories we have how couldn’t you know! I thought you were a trusted friend Faith but I think I was wrong. A true friend would know something this big! People even look at me funny when they cross me in the street for how obvious it is! Geez Faith, I just can’t believe you.”

Carl’s look at me for the last time was filled with betrayal and then he ran off. I stood there looking at him run off the beach into the darkness. I stood there, shocked by everything that just happened. How couldn’t I know about something this big. My memories went to all moments spent with Carl and I realized that maybe after all it was really obvious. Like how he always liked my girl stories, and he never complained about my bragging. Or how he always knew to make me feel better and his hugs were never more than friendly exchanges.

So even when I had built up my hopes and courage, once again things backfired on me.

[1682 words]

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I've ran away at the age of 18. I've come a long way, but now I've arrived in a small town known as Sunset Valley. Ahead of me, awaits a long journey. A legacy is what I am starting. A legacy of my own, that I will built from the ground up.

26 Responses to Chapter 1.6 – Hope and Courage

  1. Lexi says:

    Some how, (while part of me wanted Faith to get together with Carl) I had a feeling Carl was gay…I’m still hoping Faith finds her man…
    Joshua is soooo adorable… πŸ˜€

    • auburn101 says:

      Haha, so you knew it all along huh? πŸ˜‰ I really like Joshua too! I have to say he’s a little bit of my favorite! ^^ Thanks for the comment! πŸ™‚

  2. Chellekaz says:

    Poor Faith! She really doesn’t have any luck with men… Somewhere there HAS to be someone for her to get her cuddle on with!

  3. marissa3 says:

    I feel really, really bad for Faith now! Why can she not find a good man?! x

  4. Elli James says:

    What?! Awww maaaan! Don’t feel bad Faith, I’m just as oblivious as you are, trust me!

    Well, despite that disappointment (I really wanted them to end up together!), Joshua is sooo adorable! I just know Patty is going to be an amazing big sister, and Faith an amazing mother! And hopefully, one day, Faith will find a father for her children.

    • auburn101 says:

      Yeah, to be honest I’d like to find someone for her as well. But it’s like with the work and kids it’s hard to get her to go out sometimes! Thanks for commenting! πŸ˜€

  5. Emy says:

    Awww, man. Poor Faith!!! I hope they can make up and still be friends.

    Joshua’s adorable. ❀ ❀

  6. callierose says:

    Joshua is so cute, omg!! xD his little dinosaurs t-shirt.. <333
    and jeeez poor Faith, although I'm kinda on Carl's side here. They were so close, she really should have picked up on something so big. aaaand yet, love is blind :/

    • auburn101 says:

      Ha ha .. gotta love the dinosaur t-shirt ! πŸ˜› I guess you’re right, but whenever they were together they always talked about Faith .. no room for little old Carl! πŸ˜‰

  7. Jedidiah says:

    Aww… poor Faith! She didn’t know…heck, I didn’t know Carl was gay. I think he over reacted a bit. Thank goodness she has Patty. She is very mature and wise for her age. And Joshua is such a cutie. Come on simworld! Isn’t there any good male sim out there for Faith?? She has suffered enough in the romance dept. πŸ˜‰

    • auburn101 says:

      I didn’t know either but he kept refusing her when she flirted, so well I figured you know πŸ˜‰ You;re right, Faith does have it rough ! thanks for commenting ^^

  8. Carebear728 says:

    Poor Faith…why can’t Carl be bisexual!!

  9. Tabby :) says:

    Wow, I was hoping they would get together. 😦
    Hopefully she finds someone soon!
    Joshua is cute.<3

  10. spongeb0berz says:

    I had this strange feeling he was gay, when you said he liked her girl stories. Aww, I was hoping he wasn’t! Carl always treated her so well, and I don’t think it’s fair he ran off like that. Maybe she really didn’t know? It’s not a reason to get bent out of shape! Faith is a wonderful friend! ): She really needs someone who can just love her.<3

    Patty and Josh are adorable. I just love how sweet Patty is ❀

    Great update.

    -Sponge

    • auburn101 says:

      Guess your part of the few who suspected it huh πŸ˜‰ I hope they get together as well .. guess we’ll all have to wait and find out? Glad you like the kids! πŸ˜‰ Thanks for commenting too! πŸ˜€

  11. Sherlister says:

    Aww, I was hoping Carl and Faith would get together. Who knew he was homosexual? But still, he shouldn’t have treated her that way

  12. Nightrain17 says:

    Awwww man! I thought that Carl and Faith would be together.
    But like OMG he’s homosexual, but like I don’t understand why he thought she would know. It’s not like he actually told her. He can’t expect her to just guess these things.

  13. O.O Damn! Girl can’t catch a break! Carl should really calm the hell down, though. It’s not like he told her!

  14. dustydreamer says:

    First, Joshua is ADORABLE!
    Second, this girl is so unlucky. Does she have the unlucky trait? DX
    I cant believe that Carl was homosexual..I was as surprised as Faith! I hope that he realizes that she really didnt know…I mean he never told her about it…you know? How can he expect ehr to figure it out? To her he was just a really good, caring friend who was always there for her.
    I dont know…Im just hoping that it doesnt really end their friendship…. :[

    • auburn101 says:

      Yes, she has the unlucky trait and it seems to be hitting her hard!
      ps. I really enjoy all the comments you’ve been letting on in the past few chapters, I appreciate the kind words πŸ˜‰

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